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2002-11-25 - 9:13 p.m. How can you guys honestly sit here and ask what’s wrong? Or why are you mad at me? Mr. larson brought the fact to me that “I've changed” and not for the better he’s telling me. He say’s that all my so-called “friends” are talking shit about me and no one really likes me at all. And then he asked me why I am so unhappy. How do you even answer a question like that? I’m told by people, I’m weird and I scare them, I’m a bitch, and I have no friends. How would you react to something like that, well I became unhappy. The only person I have been able to talk to is Amy but what if she one of the people who doesn’t like me? I consider her to be one the best friends I have ever had but lately I'm not sure if she feels the same way. So what do you guys want me to say when you ask me what's wrong? Or why are you mad at me? Why am I mad at you? I'm mad because I can’t talk to most of my friends because their your guys and “I am trying to take them”, I'm mad because you say you like me and then wont speak to me the next day, I'm mad because one minute I'm you’re best friend the next you are saying “I'm weird and I scare you”. And what's wrong? I am so unhappy and I still haven’t figured out how to fix it, and sometime I just can’t stop crying. The pain eats me alive some nights and some nights I can’t even go to sleep because I am crying too much and can’t stop. What else do you want me to say, I don’t want you’re pity I was just simply answering you questions, I can’t help if you don’t like my answers. The only people I am probably totally happy with is Amy, nikki, Edward, and Vanessa, the rest of you have done something to hurt me. Now I might be forgetting a few people that I'm happy with but it’s just so hard to remember so if you want to know what you did or didn’t do ask, and please don’t talk about me behind my back, I have good ears.
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